Rebekah D, Class of 2020 ...

Rebekah D, Class of 2020 ...

One never expects to find themselves end of senior year and facing a pandemic. To say that there is a lot to grieve for graduated seniors is an understatement of massive proportion, so it was a great blessing to be able to take this beauty’s portraits … finally. Finding the day that we could connect, half way for both of us, in Louisville was the first task, then the right location for it, the second. Fortunately, we were lucky enough to be introduced to a beautiful park that suited us just fine.

Robie, I am so grateful to have finally gotten time with you, my beautiful niece. I know your senior year didn’t quite finish the way you’d imagined but I am so proud of you. You’re a force and I am looking forward to seeing what KWC has in store for you. They are lucky to have you on their roster. You’re gonna kick some major behind while you’re there! Love you girl!

Sydney, Asbury University 2020

Sydney, Asbury University 2020

I spent a gorgeous evening in Louisville with this beautiful spitfire of a human being earlier in the week. While we were unable to shoot on Campus in Wilmore, we had a great location option in L-ville to make up for it. It was the kind of evening that made you quickly forget what Covid took away; not just in the number of people enjoying meals together, the beautiful weather or the folks playing with boats on the pond, but especially in a smile that never left this beauty. You wouldn't have known that she missed her friends or felt a little jilted from the losses in her last semester as an undergraduate, for she carried herself with a joy that put any disappointment in its place, and in turn illuminated a hope in her as she spoke to her future. Sydney, it was an absolute pleasure meeting you, thank you for entrusting me with your portraits. And congratulations on all of your achievements and your graduation! Lisa, congrats to you to, momma, great job! ~ B

Morey 2020 ...

When you're lucky enough to see your dear friend and take her family's photos ... Sharon and Charles, thank you for letting me have the time with you guys. It was a pleasure meeting your parents. Hopefully, next time, we won't have to don masks. I so grateful for you guys! ~ B

3rd birthday ....

It is so hard to believe this handsome guy is three. From the very beginning, those cheeks have made it impossible to not feel joy. His sweet little spirit comes through every time he grins, his entire face illuminated by his smile. And sweet baby Bryn, so big aleeady. Those little legs will be running in no time and I'm certain by the time she turns one this summer, she will be working hard to keep up with that big brother of hers.

Tiffany and Shawn, thank you for allowing me the time again. It is always so good to see you all! Even during this crazy season of quarantines and social distances. Love to you all! ~ B

Ahmaud Arbery …

For a couple of weeks now, Sophie Grace and I have been discussing the Reconstruction Amendments and the case of Plessy vs Ferguson. In short, the amendments were established after the Civil War to guarantee freedom/s for people who had been enslaved. The 13th abolished slavery, the 14th identified all folks born in the US and naturalized in the US, as citizens and the 15th guaranteed voting rights. Within the 14th amendment, section 1 states, among other words, that no state can deprive any person of life, liberty or property without due process of law; nor can a state deny any person equal protection of the laws.”

Plessy vs Ferguson is a case that came to be about 25 or so years after the amendments that, more or less, helped usher in a “legalized” line of segregation leading to the establishment and practice of “Jim Crow” laws which only ended up erasing the work set in place by the Reconstruction era of thinking and implementing. 

Soph and I have spoken at length about atrocities that took place after Plessy Vs Ferguson and throughout our nation, in the years that followed, which appeared “protected” by laws

Like all bias, Racial Bias, disguised as law or excused by law, quietly led people toward mistreatment. 

I cannot help but think to these as I read post after post about the Ahmaud Arbery case. Let’s set aside the emotion (though very hard) at this moment and assumptions or unknowns for starters. By that, I mean, we do not know (for a fact) that he was the suspect in the robberies, we do not know (with 100% certainty) that he was out for a jog, we cannot be certain that Arbery didn’t “take the first swing” at McMichael. 

Arbery’s defenders have indicated that he regularly jogged for fitness and his opposers have shared that he has prior criminal history as recently as 2018.  

Here are a couple of key things that strike me; a 25-year-old man lost the opportunity to speak to his innocence or guilt when two citizens chose to shoot and kill him and secondly, while running, he encountered two weaponized men, one standing near him with weapon in hand. 

Regardless of race, two men took the law into their own hands, shot an unarmed man and proceeded to watch as he fell into the road and died. Neither man appeared to check his pulse, attempt CPR or attempt to make Arbery comfortable as he died. Which appears to show an emotional disengagement from their actions. 

Like all bias, Racial Bias, disguised as law or excused by law, quietly leads people toward mistreatment.

When I walk alone (as someone at risk/a woman), if confronted with someone who seems at odds with me, I have two choices; run/avoid or stand/defend/fight. I am only likely to come into contact with someone threatening me because I am a woman, not because I am white. A black man jogging and coming upon any person standing in a threatening manner with a shotgun is likely going to do the same; run/avoid or stand/defend/fight. 

Black men are significantly at risk of being threatened simply because they are black men. Whether it is because (to name a few) they are perceived as a threat out of fear based discrimination, size or bias. 

If I, a white woman, chose to defend myself to anyone, regardless of race, and was shot/assaulted in the meantime, voices of anger and demands for justice would quickly ring out. Good words regarding my character would likely be spoken, even if my past were a little checkered. If my attacker happened to be another race than my own, anger would likely be amplified in my racial community. And it likely would not have taken more than two months for my attacker/s to be arrested and charged, especially if a video were involved. 

Like all bias, Racial Bias, disguised as law or excused by law, quietly leads people toward mistreatment.

Hundreds of years in the making, discrimination against the black race has been the backbone to many nations, ours not withstanding. They were stolen, held captive, and enslaved because of bias that they were somehow “less” worthy of life. When freed, bias still permeated through intentional segregation mandated by our court systems which were lead by men who historically “tended towards racism” bias giving permission to the ever present, festering thoughts that the black race WAS less and deserved less. 

Like all bias, Racial Bias, disguised as law or excused by law, quietly leads people toward mistreatment.

Ahmaud Arbery was targeted because these two men said that he resembled a suspect in recent robberies.  Having thought this, these two men grabbed their weapons and chased him down with intent that ended violently, more than likely, because of his race.  

Systemic racism is in this country’s DNA. Eradicating laws doesn’t change bias. Saying we want change, electing black leaders and residing in multi-cultural neighborhoods does not undo the bias that has existed for hundreds of years. They are beginnings but it will take many years more to undo what has been so intrinsic in our country’s lineage ... that Racial bias is somehow founded and justified. That minorities are less than, that their lives hold less value. We need to change our environment, we need to hold people accountable for their actions and be held accountable for our own, we need to expect immediate and swift justice and we need to scream when it’s not been delivered. 

Until we, as white people, can see and admit our ingrained bias, we will forever have white men chasing down black men and shooting them without regard to the value of their life, there will be no change. 

Until we can see that racism has always existed and is ever present still, there will be no change.

Until we are able to genuinely mourn with black families for loss of life without trying to excuse it, there will be no change. 

Until we are able to see that all life matters; before and after birth, black or white, young or old, Christian or not, criminal or innocent, there will be no change. 

Ahmaud should have been able to go home to his mother.

Ahmaud should have been approached as an innocent man. 

Ahmaud should not have died on a suburban road.

Ahmaud’ s life should not have been reduced to an argument of right and wrong, discrimination or not.

Ahmaud should have had a voice. 

Emotionally, I don’t have the capacity to understand the loss of life in this way. I cannot fathom burying my son. I lost my father on a highway by an irresponsible man; I worry a little more when my loved ones walk out the door and get behind the wheel. My mind wanders when the minutes pass the hour they should have been home and still, I will never comprehend, the very founded and unspoken worries of a mother when she says goodbye to her black son as he heads out for his day.

Her last hug stolen, her last “I love you” robbed and the last glimmer of that bright smile forever framed in a moment she will never get back.

Systemic racism is in OUR DNA. Racial bias leads US toward mistreatment.

Bella, University of Cincinnati, DAAP 2020 …

Bella, University of Cincinnati, DAAP 2020 …

I cannot begin to imagine the number of pictures I have snapped of this beauty. There have been photos covering birthdays, vacations, proms, museum trips and art ventures (remember the blue series, Bell? 😂). I knew shooting her senior pictures for college graduation would be bittersweet but it is so much more than that. It’s noticing that single little dimple on her right cheek all over again. It’s seeing those bouncy curls as if it’s the first time. It’s observing her tiny, little pigeon-toedness, the way she swings when she walks and that smile that always likened her to Shirley Temple, this time with an added grace that wasn’t there before. I have looked at these pictures forwards and backwards and I see a young woman that I’ve not seen before. One that I knew would come, one that was likely always there but like a star in our galaxy, I’m seeing it in light year measurements. It is unfathomable to me that both the speed of time and the feeling that it’s been many years coexist on the same plane. There are brief moments I long for the days she was small; those ridiculously sweet moments and many, many belly laughs but they pass quickly because this person before me continues to draw me in more and more each day. It is a privilege to know her, to listen to her, to converse, to laugh with and to love her. I’m so grateful that I’ve reached a point in my parenting that there is a shift, while I’ll still parent, I can also, now, revel in a friendship and I couldn’t be more thrilled.

Bella, congratulations on your graduation. You killed it my dear girl and I am not, in the least, surprised. I cannot wait to see what unfolds from here and I am so looking forward to being a part of it! I love you beautiful girl! Many many good wishes!
~ Momma

Senior Porch Portrait ...

Senior Porch Portrait ...

Covid-19 has stolen enough from folks so I felt it important to offer porch portraits to document the end of a very strange season. I was so happy that these two seniors took me up on the offer, so with my telephoto lens and proper social distancing in place, I was able to grab a few photos. Anna and Lauren, thank you so much for allowing me the time. I hope that despite this new crazy, you guys are able to find the joy in what remains! Best wishes as graduation approaches!

~ B

Sofia B, Class of 2020 ...

Sofia B, Class of 2020 ...

Washington Park had a certain kind of Portland or Seattle feel to it on the night we shot these portraits. While it was chilly, it was so pleasant wandering the streets of OTR with this wonderful senior. Sofia, thank you for allowing me the time. We should shoot again soon! Best wishes for the remainder of a great year! ~B

Bryn, Three Months …

Bryn, Three Months …

Baby Bryn, you have grown so beautifully! And while you were cautious to share that smile, your sweet disposition was evident. Tiffany and Shawn, as always, I love the time with your beautiful family! Thank you! ~ B

Keiley, Class of 2020 ...

Keiley, Class of 2020 ...

Keiley, Sharon Woods was such a perfect spot for you. The vibrant colors just begged for attention and the breeze that swept through the entire evening brought your photos to life. I truly enjoyed the time with you and your wonderful Momma! I hope the rest of this year brings you great things and look forward to hearing where you wind up! Thank you for allowing me to shoot your portraits! Best wishes! ~ B

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